ninefox | anchorage

Fives waves the bathroom light on and just... stops and stares at the mirror, startled by Jedao's face staring back at him. "Well, that's something, at least." He reaches out to press his hand to the cool glass over the reflection of Jedao's chest. "Be happier if I could touch you, but... I'm fine," he adds, dropping his hand again. "Probably should be bothered hearing your voice in my head, but-" He shrugs. "I'm not really.

"Just how young do I look?" he asks, since Jedao is apparently the only one who can see him in full, though he does tip his head down to give himself a more thorough examination. Younger, leaner, wiry with muscle instead of heavily padded with it, all the battle scars along his chest and arms and shoulders gone, though that still leaves the liberal assortment of scars he'd collected in training.

He runs a hand down his chest and belly and sighs, exasperated at how gangly he feels. Force, he'd thought he was so hardboiled back as a cadet. "Can't be more than eight or nine, I don't think," he adds, scratching absently at the thin trail of hair disappearing beneath the sagging waistband of his blacks.

He watches - appears to watch - from the mirror, grinning in amusement.

"You look like a day-old calf, you're all legs," he says, instead of getting into the hideous injustice of Fives looking about sixteen and knowing that's actually older than he is, even as a hardened soldier.

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"Mir'sheb," he grumbles under his breath, knowing Jedao will be well aware he's been called a smartass. "And I'm still bigger than you," he points out, smoothing his palms lightly over unfamiliar skin, letting his fingers trail along scars, or the places they should be.

"Didn't get my last growth spurt until after we deployed." His armor had been a little loose those first few weeks at Rishi station. "But I think I was taller than this, at least." He scrubs both hands up over his face and then steps over to the toilet to take a piss, less than unbothered by Jedoa's ghostly presence as he shoves his blacks out of the way.

Watching Fives touch himself - easy and attentive and exploratory - is. Difficult. Even though he knows it must be disturbing, to have so many scars and his tattoos gone, even though it's a perfectly reasonable reaction for Fives to have. It's just. An image.

Getting his dick out for something as routine as relieving himself is relatively easier to deal with.

"Technically, right now you are exactly as big as me. You're the only body I've got, so that's how big I am." If he's going to be a smartass, he might as well get his money's worth.

Fives gives his hands a perfunctory wash when he's done and then pads back out into the main room. "You can't sleep like this, can you?" he asks, heading for Jedao's tea accoutrements. He actually stumbles on thin air halfway there, cursing under his breath as he catches himself. "I wasn't this kriffing clumsy when I was supposed to be this size," he grumbles, maybe a little defensive. "It's just going to take some getting used to."

"No, but that's alright," he admits, before getting distracted by the motion question. "You're actually managing unusually well. Although maybe that's because the admiral didn't actually have to drug you for the procedure."

He wonders what will happen if they end up in a combat situation. He's never had an anchor with reflexes at least as good - but different from - his own, before.

"No, it's really not," he answers, brusque and clearly annoyed, whether it's at the situation or the answer is hard to tell.

"Unusually well?" He's made it to the tea service now, and he sets about preparing a cup the way he's watched Jedao do it so many times. It's something to do with his hands while he adjusts and thinks. "Do they make a habit of shrinking people with medical procedures where you're from?" It hasn't yet occurred to him that Jedao might mean the process of becoming his anchor.

He laughs, bright and warm.

"Well, maybe the Andan do, who fucking knows. Most of my anchors are rather disoriented after getting a extra soul implanted."

"Huh." It hadn't occurred to him that that might be part of the clumsiness, he'd just chalked it up to losing two inches of height or more along with a good deal of muscle... and being that gangly, awkward, in between growth spurts size again.

He settles onto one of the cushions at the low table with his tea, once close enough to the wall he can shift it around and lean against it, and stretches his legs out in front of them. "Can you bring your shadow back?" he asks, not quite plaintive as he cradles the cup in his hands without drinking. "It feels at least a little more like you're actually... here, talking to it."

If he had breath it would catch; if he had a chest it would ache. No one ever wanted to see the Ninefox Crowned with Eyes, the sign he personally transmuted into a harbinger of insanity and disaster. Even the anchors who weren't maneuvered as blatantly as Cheris was, who were fascinated or ambitious enough or both to be glad of his assistance were still wary of him.

Talking to him was always a risk, not a comfort.

"I'm here," he says, the shadow leaping into shape at Fives' feet, amber eyes wide and bright. His throatless voice sounds a little hoarse. "I'm with you, I promise."

Tension that hadn't been quite as clear in his narrower, leaner shoulders eases at the physical proof of Jedao's presence. He doesn't mind the voice in his head, but it's no more tangible than a voice over the commlink in his bucket, and he smiles faintly at the gracefully waving tails with their unblinking golden eyes.

"Thanks." He takes a sip of the tea to clear the hoarseness from his own throat, then sets it on the table so he can return to the assessment he'd started in the bathroom. He can't see himself, so he'll have to settle for mapping this strange-familiar body by touch. "Wish I could touch you," he adds, as he trails his fingers along a scar running just above his hipbone, angling down towards his groin beneath his blacks, and remembering the scare that had given him at the time. "But the shadow's... nice."

Between the soft skate of Fives' fingers over the skin of his hipbone, and Jedao's own turbulent feelings, and the wistful sincerity of Fives' regret, he's swamped for a moment with affection and desire, wordless and thoughtless, a wave of feeling he can neither express nor - it turns out - entirely contain.

He wants. There isn't anything in him or of him but wanting.

"Jedao?" The ninefox is still there, Fives knows Jedao's not gone, but there's a catch in his voice at the lack of an answer nonetheless.

Or maybe it's at the sudden awareness of heat pooling low in his belly, of the realization that he's back at the physiological age when all it had taken was a stray breeze or a stray thought or, Force, sometimes even a punch in the kriffing face to get him hard. When he'd been a giant, seething ball of hormones and all he'd wanted to do was fight or fuck, or sometimes both at once... and he'd been surrounded by brothers who felt exactly the same way.

But right now he's, at least physically, alone, staring at Jedao's shadow and straining to hear his voice as he stills his hand where it's just barely dipped beneath the waistband of his blacks.

"Sorry, I'm sorry," he - doesn't gasp, he isn't short of breath. He says, with whatever scraps of equanimity he can muster, which isn't much.

The shadow's gone still, curled into a small tight shape, but every yellow eye is still fixed wide and clear on Fives.

"Are you-" Kriff, he can't keep from shifting his hips restlessly, even the faint drag of his blacks over the head of his dick enough to drag a quiet gasp from him in punctuation. "Are you all right?" The sound of Jedao's voice and the way the many-tailed fox shadow has curled in on itself is concerning, even if his body has decided to be as kriffing frustrating and uncooperative as he remembers it from when he'd been this age, not just looked it.

"I'm a bastard, but I'm fine," Jedao growls, frustrated with himself, with the sheer depth of how little he wants to explain and knowing Fives deserves better than surprises and secrets about his own body, especially with how little control of it he's been given in his life. "It's me, it's my fault, I just -" I wish you could touch me too, he thinks, even though he knows Fives meant it innocently, knows how often and how easy touch is a simple comfort between them, even if Fives has offered more before.

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"You're not kriffing fine," Fives snaps, even as he feels arousal singing along his nerves like a living force. It's more frustration with himself, with his body's completely inappropriate reaction to the situation, than with Jedao's response, though the clear self-loathing both irks and concerns him. "And there's no fucking thing about this that's your fault," he adds, using Jedao's favored obscenity for emphasis. 'You just what?"

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He can't stop looking. He literally can't, has no ability not to see the small, hitching motions of Fives' hips, the stutter as he tries and fails not to move, the twitch in his jaw as he growls and curses. It's hypnotic, and a terrible feedback loop, and distracting, which Jedao is going to blame for not being able to think of anything to stop Fives blaming himself except blurting out the truth.

"You are feeling my feelings," he hisses, "Because I am in your head."

Fives barks a laugh, hoarse and a little choked. "You think this-" He shifts his hips with more purpose now, giving up on trying to fight the arousal down and instead pushing the heel of his hand against the head of his cock. "You think this is all you?"

There's a little shock at the idea that any of it could be Jedao, a little confusion and even hurt at the memory of how many times Jedao has put him off, but mostly it's frustrated amusement at Jedao trying to lay claim to the situation at all. "Did you miss how kriffing old I am right now? All it takes to get me hard is a stray breeze." He lets his eyes squeeze shut and gives in entirely, the thought of Jedao watching him and wanting too much to resist as he shoves his hand down his blacks and curls it around himself, shuddering at the touch. "Your kriffing voice is more than enough, all on its own, vod."

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"The only breeze in here knows to stay in its corner," he points out, very dryly, his drawl deepening, voice rough and hungry as he watches the shudder play out on Fives' face.

His mouth can't be dry when he doesn't have a mouth. He wonders if he can be struck dumb; there are things capable of striking the shadow. It's always been easy for him to ride his own momentum, to shatter once he's broken and hold nothing back, and with Fives saying that, giving in and gripping himself, Jedao - doesn't forget any of the reasons he stopped himself but he can't remember how to care.

"Fox and hound, I want you all the time. You have no idea -"

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He hadn't been exaggerating when he'd said Jedao's voice was enough, and that rough baritone drawl shivers right down to his toes, that much more irresistibly intimate for being all in his head. He digs his bare heels into the floor, enough to lever his ass up so he can shove his blacks down out of the way with his free hand, give himself room to move.

"Then why-" His hips arch up again, this time into his loosely curled fist, and his eyes snap open, just a thin ring of whisky gold iris haloing the dark wells of his pupils as he fixes his gaze on Jedao's shadow. "Why do you keep kriffing putting... putting me off?" he demands, his own voice a low growl, his accent going thick.

"You're my lieutenant," he groans, sounds deeply, physically pained. "Don't let's argue about it now, fuck, you're so beautiful, you're gorgeous, look at you move -"

He's about to argue, to point out how little rank matters off the battle field, how ridiculous it is to put him off for something so meaningless. But Jedao just keeps talking, and it turns out it's not just his voice, it's the things he says with it. Fives groans, low and rough, and tips his head back against the wall, exposing the long line of his throat and the bob of his adams apple as he swallows convulsively. He doesn't take his eyes off Jedao's shadow, though. Watches it intently, in fact, as he slides his foreskin back from the head of his cock and slips his other hand down to cup the warm weight of his balls.

He's learned enough from Clark by now that he wets his lips and demands, "Keep talking," in a breathless, gravelly voice. "Tell me what you kriffing want,
vod."

The shadow is prowling, now, pacing back and forth, tails swishing, long slender legs stretched like planetside shadows at sunset, still connected to Fives where his feet are pressed against the floor. Every time the fox turns, its mouth is partly open, teeth silhouetted in profile, tongue not quite lolling.

"Go slower," he says, ruthless and mean, just like the fox's grin. "Fuck, I want go down on you. I wish I were there on my knees, I'd lick you and lick you, hold your knees and bite bruises onto your thighs, and then lick you again, long ones down the shaft and little ones under your foreskin. Big messy licks over the head when you're really leaking so I can't taste anything but you, until you can't stand it anymore and grab my hair and make me suck."

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Slow... isn't what he wants, but only because it's never been what he's used to, and Clark has been teaching him how good it can be to take your time. Still, this body is young and cranked up to eleven and his hands shake a little as he forces them to slow, turns the short jerks of his hips into long, slow rolls that set his abs to rippling, show the muscles straining in his thighs with the effort of doing as Jedao asks... as he orders.

"Aaah, Force," he rasps, still watching Jedao from under his eyelashes. It might be his shadow only, but Fives associates it enough with his presence that it feels like him for this, and the way it's stalking, prowling, sends shivers down his spine as he drags his thumb slowly over the hyper-sensitive skin at the head of his cock. "Your kriffing mouth, vod. Bet I could-" He fumbles for a moment, reaching for Jedao's word. "I could fuck your mouth, couldn't I? Bet you'd just... take it."

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