He shivers as the monster presses itself to his back, keeps his legs tight together though he doesn't have the energy to curse himself for putting himself in this position. "Ruined now," he whispers, and barely has the energy for that. He's ruined, his service is ruined, what love his brothers might ever have had for him is lost.

"Ruined and done... just want it over." He wishes he'd died with Hardcase, he's the only one who came out of this debacle with his honor intact.